my life is just a little complicated these days i feel like.
i mean... i have an incredible job, that i love...
that even pays well with great benefits.
i'm only 45 minutes from my family.
i've made some great friends here in waynesville.
and the town i live in is beautiful... and safe- and that's a big deal to me.
especially since i live alone.
however... i've had this feeling for the past 2 years since graduating and moving here, that i'm really not where i'm supposed to be. i'm not living the life that i want. i'm not living for "me."
i'll go through stages where i'm really happy, focused, and content. and then the next thing i know i'm searching for more.
i think a lot of this has to do with the fact that i'm still single.
granted, i know i'm only 24 and i've had a rough (really really rough) past few relationships. but i think God is trying to tell me something. why else would my relationships keep failing? why else would i be getting depressed and feeling even more lonely than i ever thought i was?
all i do know is that my relationship with HIM is growing more than it ever has. and that's the one thing getting me through this patch of uncertainty. i know that whatever path my life takes it is His will for my life. that's all there is to it.
i owe a lot of this self discovery and my growing relationship with Christ to
another thing is the fact that even though i love my career and i'm helping individuals on a daily basis- it's not what i envisioned myself doing. it's not my "dream job." although my dream job involves me living in an orphanage in kenya. probably not happening.
adoptions would be a little more of a realistic dream job.
i guess where i'm going with this is don't be surprised if i'm all of a sudden moving somewhere, or taking on a new job, or... something.
all i know is that i need a change, or... something.
let's just say i'm opening doors and letting God take control. i even opened a few doors today. but shhhh!
i'll leave you with this quote i found while studying my bible. it was from a devotion i just happened to stumble upon. umm... perfect!
i mean... i have an incredible job, that i love...
that even pays well with great benefits.
i'm only 45 minutes from my family.
i've made some great friends here in waynesville.
and the town i live in is beautiful... and safe- and that's a big deal to me.
especially since i live alone.
however... i've had this feeling for the past 2 years since graduating and moving here, that i'm really not where i'm supposed to be. i'm not living the life that i want. i'm not living for "me."
i'll go through stages where i'm really happy, focused, and content. and then the next thing i know i'm searching for more.
i think a lot of this has to do with the fact that i'm still single.
granted, i know i'm only 24 and i've had a rough (really really rough) past few relationships. but i think God is trying to tell me something. why else would my relationships keep failing? why else would i be getting depressed and feeling even more lonely than i ever thought i was?
all i do know is that my relationship with HIM is growing more than it ever has. and that's the one thing getting me through this patch of uncertainty. i know that whatever path my life takes it is His will for my life. that's all there is to it.
i owe a lot of this self discovery and my growing relationship with Christ to
another thing is the fact that even though i love my career and i'm helping individuals on a daily basis- it's not what i envisioned myself doing. it's not my "dream job." although my dream job involves me living in an orphanage in kenya. probably not happening.
adoptions would be a little more of a realistic dream job.
i guess where i'm going with this is don't be surprised if i'm all of a sudden moving somewhere, or taking on a new job, or... something.
all i know is that i need a change, or... something.
let's just say i'm opening doors and letting God take control. i even opened a few doors today. but shhhh!
i'll leave you with this quote i found while studying my bible. it was from a devotion i just happened to stumble upon. umm... perfect!
"It's only God who can fill our deepest longings, who never cancels for an appointment elsewhere, who never replaces us with someone he likes better, who promises never to leave us totally alone. He is the only one who wants to be & always can be the unfailing companion on our journey."
j.
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